Control Freak!

Lately I have been struggling with control issues!  I am sure that until I meet Jesus face to face I will struggle in this area!

When things happen that I have no control over, I start planning!  My mind goes into overdrive pondering how I can get my way!  Here is just a small list of the things that I try and control.

My husband and his

• Job,diet, success and schedule

My mother and her

• house, diet, clothing and hairstyle

My daughters and their

• finances, relationships, clothing, and feelings

My church and Its

• Policies, staff, schedules, and worship

Seriously I have issues!

When things are not going the way that I think they should, I am frustrated! God and I have had plenty of conversations about my need for control!

Recently after being frustrated with my husband because he wasn't doing something that I thought he needed to do, God woke me up in the middle of the night! The conversation went something like this,

"Jann, yes Lord?  I want you to trust me to lead your husband.  Basically, stop trying to control him and leave him alone.  He is my responsibility!"

Ouch! 

"I don't like this at all" I whimpered to God!

"Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see."           HEBREWS 1:1

One morning Jacob woke up after he had a conversation with God and he said, "Surely the Lord is in this place, and I was not aware of it" (Genesis 28:16).

In the middle of the night, God was able to get Jacob's attention.

I felt like Jacob when God woke me up! Jann trust me! Be aware that I am at work!


Since that night I have had several other things that have been weighing on my control freak mind.  The last one required me to focus on scripture!

Proverbs 3:5,6 and Isaiah 43:13

Yes, and from ancient days I am he. No one can deliver out of my hand. When I act, who can reverse it?"

I had to trust and believe God when He speaks. He was able to handle situations without me!  
 

Are there things that you need to let go of today? Are you in need of waking up to trust Him more today? God will speak to you but He won't force you to do anything. You like me still have to make a choice to believe what He says and then do it.

 

Father, I am sorry for being such a control freak. I trust you to lead me and and change me.  Teach me your ways Lord!  Give me a new heart and mind! Create in me a clean heart!

Love your control freak daughter,

Jann

The God of the Universe, of all creation can handle things without my help!